I get a picture that look like she on a date with some other dude after I buy her $400 in roses so that’s where my I’m at right now. I’m over thinking this maybe but it’s very difficult to stay optimistic. It’s like I’m a ghost caught up watching others play out reenactments of my life. The woman I love is running around with my stunt doubles and I don’t exist. I try to sound optimistic though I’m drowning in negativity, pessimism. It’s horrible and there’s always the option to sign up for more meds, I can deal with it though, writing about this helps. SSRI anyone Celexa, Zoloft, Prozac