Since my last post where I last summarized what all I went through since 2020, I left off where I went to visit my mom for Christmas and was out of work so I had a lot of free time trying to find another job. I get this feeling that people intentionally put me in this position to see what happens or I don’t know what the point of it is. I applied for unemployment because I was at my job for eight months full time and then suddenly no more work. I was approved for unemployment. I never heard anything else after that. The Workforce Unemployment webpage has it’s own messaging system where I was told I was approved and what day I would start receiving pay between jobs, it never updated after that and said my new application was attached to my previous unemployment claim from a year ago where I was on unemployment between jobs for a month, and since that was exactly a year ago, That was expired, and my new claim I just made this month, I believe they expired along with it. I literally spent two weeks with a date I was receiving unemployment benefits when it never went through so I had to pull a loan to make rent. I applied for Snap food and was asked to send some more paper work, that I sent and haven’t heard back from so I’ve gone almost three weeks with nothing but lettuce and bologna and bread, maybe an avocado here and there from what I had left and my loan and also sent the Snap people a copy of the loan I had to take out. Aunt had recommended I try for disability and so I took up on that and applied in my free time also, which I was not interested in before because I think I’m perfectly healthy except some speech problem from adhd and a lot of stress from overwhelmed from all of this. Last year I told myself, if I can’t keep a job then something’s wrong with me and I’ll go ahead and apply for disability because I keep getting bounced around and this ridiculous. I get the idea from all these movies and such, like Ace Ventura, where JCs in the mental hospital, that that’s the idea people have for me as some standard set by these movie producers and writers, as in I’m supposed to be treated like a mentally handicapped person so I can live of disability, that so many people seem to be so successful at like my Aunt. I think I need to up my acting skills or something so I can get approved for disability or something. What else is happening? I think I had a social media crazy episode because so bored with free time, waiting for a job and stressed out, and posted some skits I setup on Photoshop. Literally had no plan on what I posted on Facebook. You know, I don’t feel depressed or anything but I’m looking at what I’m posting and looks like I’m intentionally trying to mess up my profile because I’m so bored and it’s kind of fun. So I’m somewhere at I’m role playing as the Goat Devil and chatting with Charlotte Windsor who just befriended me as her best friend and other stuff. I might end up living in my car again next week if I can’t make rent. Went to the hospital today and had two vials of blood taken out for my labs. It wasn’t so bad. I remember three years ago when Wal-Mart fired me and I couldn’t make rent, I went and donated plasma to try to raise money. It was horrible. I’d donated before, twenty years ago but forgot what it was like. I was twitching in the cot, while my blood was pumped out and pumped back into me. That’s always an option to make rent, but that’s like giving people, a bunch of people, in hospitals my blood while I’m basically shooting myself in the head because everyone’s pressuring me into this situation where I’m constantly on the brink of being homeless and starving while I’m one of the most famous people in the world. Yeah I don’t want to give people that satisfaction that I’m twitching on a cot again donating plasma to pay rent. I think I have enough leftover on my snap card from last year, I’m make a run for the store and buy another loaf of bread and some more bologna. I’m going back to the day labor place, I should’ve gone to the last couple of weeks but I thought I would have my unemployment disqualified so I was putting it off until the unemployment thing went through. So hopefully this works out cause I’m at emergency rents about to be due, and I need paycheck NOW, not with two weeks paycheck hold.