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I sent Claire some presents

I have a conspiracy theory, which might be completely wrong but it’s a thought that won’t go away… Since I was probably about 6,7,8 or so my mom met a guy that she later had a family with until he left her for some asian woman, that her married later on. This guy was my step-parent for a while, though we didn’t get along very well… but I remember some stuff about him… he was supposedly adopted here in Texas but his former family was from California that he didn’t know anything about, other than they were from California, he was from California… about the time that mom met him when I was probably seven years old, I have to go through some time frames to get the exact years, but anyhow, Jim Carey came out with a movie called Copper Mountain… I don’t know what he has to do with that, but that’s very coincidental.. and I’m wondering if some people, possibly ummm Claire, Claire’s family happen to be related to my ex-step-dad’s family from California before he was adopted out, because the Jim Carrey, Copper Mountain, JC thing sound related and so I’m stuck on this step-family association, possibility, conspiracy theory thought.

The conversation I’m trying to think of would go like, “Claire, I found out that you’re kind of mentioned in a few movies a little bit after the time my fiancee left me and I don’t know why exactly but the movies, The Hunger Games – Chasing Fire, Mockingjay 1&2, and Dumb and Dumber To, I believe kind of are associating you to me from some book that was written before I was born, The Never Ending Story. I know this weird and but I just watched these the other day and noticed this and had no idea this was there. Is it me or does it sound like Jim Carrey’s trying to hook us up? I wish I had known this three years ago when I saw you on Instagram and I might have acted differently than like trying to say hello to a complete stranger. I thought you were cute so I managed to keep up with you this long. What I’m trying to say is, I think we something in common now, we could always talk about if you ever want someone to chat with. I’m kind of crazy, but I’m okay. Oh yeah the Never Ending Story, I found out I was associated with these two main characters Sebastion and Atreyu, which is kind of like associating me with a split personality of people I would relate to. I’m the Hunger Games, which has a plot similar to the Never Ending Story, I believe they’re trying to associate the main character Katniss to Atreyu from the Never Ending Story, and then associating her to you, the same way they did Sebastian-Atreyu to me : ) I know that sounds weird, but we can talk about it sometime :)).”

Claire knows I have a dog
Claire reacts to me with my dog as if my dog is in her place
Claire likes when I cuddle my dog
Claire likes when I play with my dog
Claire reacts negatively about my dog on a leash, idea feedback I get is my dog is on a leash when I take it outside, so her thinks I’m putting her on a leash when I took my dog outside, so the negative feedback I get is to treat me like a dog that’s on a leash, in other words my dog is something like a voodoo doll because see me with my dog and are having some sort of out of body experience where they’re trying to trade places with my dog and experience my pet as if they were in my pets place and they’re reactive negatively to it because it’s my pet and I’m the owner, instead of them being in the pet’s place as my owner, and people don’t like that. I had people suggest to kind of quietly get rid of the dog because it was driving everyone crazy… Shaggy my dog’s still at mom’s house, probably about to pass away soon because I don’t get to watch over him and got put in a position where I couldn’t bring him along because I couldn’t live there. It’s not only Claire reacting to my dog this way… the Delta Gamma, Dogood, were reacting to this, Brittney Spears fans were reacting to this for a while also, Trump fans were reacting to this… I didn’t know this for the first few years. I also think it was the inspiration for the Love Shack Fancy brand name that is doing internships with TCU and Delta Gamma and the Taylor Swift song Shake It Off.
Up until now I thought there wasn’t anything more to seeing Claire on Instagram three years ago, than it was coincidental and somethings about some people at that school seem to reflect me or something otherwise I thought it was another chance encounter random person I happen to see. Then I see Dumb and Dumber To the other day, because it was trending on YouTube, and there’s a lot of weird association things in this movie that seem to be hinting at someone that fits Claire’s description, then I’m checking out more movies from that year and I re-watched The Hunger Games – Catching Fire, and now see The Hunger Games – Mockingjay part 1 and 2, I kind of get the idea these Hunger Game movies are mentioning her also, I don’t think it was in the original movie so much as in these sequels. The idea I get from The Hunger Games, now makes me think of an association with The Neverending Story, with players in an arena fighting for survival. In The Neverending Story, the land is being taken over with a nothing, the idea kind of like in Fortnight the video game. The main characters are trying to find a cure for the empress to save the land and have to go through several obstacles. The Hunger Games associates Katniss to a similar name as Princess Catherine of Wales, with a similar empress type idea, and is given a bow and arrows as the cover art of the movie and appears to be made into an equivalent in story to Atreyu from the Neverending Story that was given the mission to find the Empress and cure her to save the land. The name “Catching Fire” associates the word “CAT” to C and a T, the letters of our last names, “CHING” something about Asian people, Asian person with Ch in their name similar on China. For a while there I had since Middle School, in the sixth grade or so, when I was learning cursive, I made the habit of writing my name in cursive a certain way, with the letter T from my last name similar to how my mom wrote it, but the way I wrote the cursive T looked more how a cursive F might look like, so for the longest time I was signing my name in a way that could be confused with William Ferry instead of William Terry, so I notice people mentioning that in their works because they all noticed that. Ferry looks kind of like Fire. Catching Fire. I think the secret, subliminal, idea of this movie was to make a female association to Atreyu… that I don’t know? is supposed to hunt me down and get my attention or something? I don’t know if this is really working out how they hoped, but hey we did bump into each other. I think she might disagree with trying to be setup with someone, I don’t know if she even knew about these movie suggestions either, I didn’t know about that either until now… it’s so freaking weird… I’m wondering if somehow I bust out some Back to the Future move, and went back in time and stirred some stuff up in the movie industry, then came back to now, to see if she accept my phone calls yet

I don’t think anyone expected me to make a compass app and figure out that North and South on maps is fake news and actually reversed so suddenly everyone that knew I was working on that and happens to live “North” of Texas suddenly realized they live further SOUTH and got upset because people emergency they’re on the floor or in hell and it might be me, but I think people came at me wanting revenge for making them realize that truth and wanting to pull me down to their level of further DOWN in the “South.” I’m guessing maps we’re used to take on that reversed north and south because they have a more European point of view to them, which would make Europe look like it’s further up in the north, when it’s actually further down south. Throwing out some ideas on this….

I’m not inspired to make art or anything right now, I’ll just keep writing in my journal thing here, that wasn’t supposed to be a personal journal but more of a place to write down all this stuff on the entertainment industry riddle mentions I started to pick up starting from 1982 onward, and my thoughts on all this since I didn’t know that was going on, and keeping everyone posted on my current situation because I kept dropping in and out of homelessness and it seem like everyone trying to frame me, so I started posting what was going on every day incase anything happens to cover myself. I had a sudden change in my job situation. I’ll write some more on this on my day off.

Claire knows if I’m watching TV.
Claire knows if I’m on my laptop, or my phone.
Claire knows when I’m asleep and when I wake up.
Claire knows if the laptops on my lap or on the table.
Claire doesn’t like the laptop on my lap, so it stays on the table.
Claire knows what I’m doing on the laptop.
Claire knows all about my family already.
Claire knows all about my dog.
Claire knows knows the conversations I’m having with mom at mom’s new place.
Claire knows when I’m writing on paper and not writing on notes on my phone.
Claire wants to see what I’m writing on the paper.

This is starting to be like a zoo animal situation, from this post: https://etroyal.com/november-30-2025/

Some more 2022 stuff

Quick recap of my last four years since I came back from California. 2021+. I got hired back on at Load Trail trailers where I powder coat painted trailers. I enrolled at Dallas Community College, a college I went to after high school when I didn’t have a car. I missed class a lot back then and didn’t properly unenroll from classes I was not able to attend. I passed the classes I had failed back then and got my GPA back up. I had ten thousand dollars saved up from work by the end of the school semester. I was disassociating from Katy Perry, who wrote me a cease-and-desist letter when I tried to confront her at her house. The California thing was impulsive; I was starting to sense the scope of surveillance and all the feedback I was seeing about me on social media was disorienting. In a 24 hour drive, I was at the beach in California. I think I wanted some answers to what was happening. Katy Perry had interacted with me on social media a lot leading up to Covid, we might have exchanged some rude remarks sometimes. Her brand was tripping me out, her songs and performances seemed to be based around me a lot and is dating other people and is communicating with me, in third person… I don’t know how to say that. Indirectly messaging me through Twitter likes, or subliminal messages in posts. That started a few years before Covid when I picked up the Kathy Beth Terry thing in a music video and thought maybe she had heard of my music website DFWunderground when it was trending on the internet a while back when she was starting out, I don’t know how else she might have heard about me. I also thought maybe that was all coincidental too, and I was imagining she was talking about me in those works. That was too coincidental. I was kind of wowed someone that famous was interacting with me on Twitter at first, then I started to research what all she had gone through because I didn’t know much except I had heard some of her songs on the radio a lot. I think it’s when I started seeing her music videos on YouTube around 2015 or so that I looked her up on Twitter, and it kind of took off from there. I said hello. Then some other musicians famous people and then Covid. The presidential elections before 2020. I was tripping out about everything. Then the surveillance enlightenment, at this point I think it’s only something thermal imaging in the roofs of houses… not sure at all, I did start to realize my phone’s microphone is an open microphone from feedback I was picking up on Twitter, so I started talking around my phone all the time like I had an invisible audience… this is where I really started getting kind of weird, I’m talking around my phone all the time like I’m talking to myself but sense a lot of people are listening to everything I say and that’s when I ended up in California. I had no plans when I got there. I had the thousand dollars from the stimulus thing. I was spending my stimulus money and nothing else was happening. I drove around and checked out some landmarks I’d heard about. Stimulus money’s getting low, nothing else is happening. I signed up for some food delivery apps to stay afloat a while longer. I’m in emergency, nothing’s happening, everyone’s dying from covid, I’m in California, how’d I end up here overnight, dispensaries on every corner? dispensaries on every corner? wtf What am I doing here again? Katy Perry, Kathy Beth Terry. Katy Perry can tell me what’s happening and why I sense everyone seems to know a lot about me and I don’t know why, what the f is going on? I looked up her house. I showed up to her house. I had a gun pointed at me and my dog. I blanked out, complete stranger, we got into a wrestling match, my dogs crying, think it got hurt so I wasn’t trying to hurt anyone, I was confused. I got a cease and desist letter a few days later from someone that made me think of a Hollywood actor, that said Katy Perry and Orlando Bloom had no idea who I was, a complete stranger and leave them alone. The food delivery apps banned me and I only had enough to drive back to Texas so I drove back to Texas.
Now back to 2021+. Back in Texas, I went back to work painting trailers, and went back to school. A woman at work was flirting with me around the time my semester ended at school, and I actually started responding to her. I got kind of awkward here, and it seems like these guys she had flirted with before were ganging up on me at work and making me uncomfortable. Katy Perry’s Twitter’s going off also that I’m trying to talk to some other woman. I should’ve asked to transfer over to a different area, maybe the morning shift to get away from this awkward flirting thing. I end up quitting. I was doing so well, I passed school, I had savings, then I get stupid over someone and messed that all up. I had ten thousand dollars saved up. I helped my mom move into her new housing, because the housing authority said she had to downsize to a one bedroom since she was by herself. I also noticed before I helped her move, it seemed like someone had broken into the house a few times, things were rearranged when we got back from shopping. One of my synth controllers, a mini midi piano, was broken and look like someone slammed it into the floor. I saw a trail of black spray across the floor from one end of the house and all over the wall in the living room, it was faint but it was there. Some of my stuff started dissapearing, mostly rings I purchased on Amazon. I helped mom pack her stuff and we tossed out some things that had negative memories from the past. I found a book on Witchcraft in the room I used to stay in. It was hard cover. Kind of simple, fantasy book, that was written out to read like a real witch craft book. The first few pages and the back pages, were full of signatures of women from the 903 area, they were all handwritten as if each person had personally written their name and phone number, with different pens and such. I didn’t recognize any of the names. It reminded of a book from jail, where someone might have tried to save contact information from everyone they knew. I’d say somewhere between 30 and 50 names were written on it, with phone numbers, maybe addresses, I can’t remember if there were addresses or I might have looked someone up on Facebook and verified that’s a real person, and got addresses confused with that. Why it was in this room and my piano was broken in the same room… I didn’t take the time to research it and tore the book up and threw it away. I helped mom move into her new place, I quit my job, was starting a new semester at school, I didn’t know what to do for work yet. I had my savings. I was in a bind, I had to find my own place after moving mom over. There weren’t many options here in the same town. I couldn’t hang on to a job. I kept doing impulsive things and messing everything up I was doing. I signed up for an attention deficit doctor. I remember trying Adderall out, since high school off and on, and it helped me calm down. I decided to ask for that specifically. I signed up for the next semester of school. I’m camped out at mom’s living room, at her new place, to make sure everything’s okay and researching where I should move, or what to do now. I’m looking up people in colleges in the area. Researching what local schools are like, I thought maybe I might transfer to a local school. I’m in school again! WTF. I look up local colleges on Instagram. This babe in a dance team shows up from A&M Commerce. I instant message her and say hello. She posts a picture in red lingerie but doesn’t reply to me. I ask her if she ever wants to hang out, I’m available. Think she’s talking to some other guy. Her profile sounds like she’s single and likes dating. I never heard back from her. Then one day I clicked on a random super-hot babe on Instagram, has the same name as the A&M person, but this one’s Claire Chanter from TCU. I notice something about the wording in her posts. Subliminal message that sounds like she’s talking about me. I immediately start clicking like on all her pictures. This is probably my first week on my new Adderall prescription. Claire’s interacting with me, reacting to me, she noticed me, I decided not to message her directly because maybe that’s why the other one never replied to me, because I sent a message first. I’m on froze on her picture and her reactions, I sense she knows a lot about me, and welcomes me as her new fan. I start to sense that everyone knows what I’m doing at mom’s new place. I pick up enough feedback from Twitter that sounds like there’s a live camera somewhere in the living room. I’m picking up enough feedback that details as much as the color of a pen I’m using to write with. I pull out a deck of cards and I can lay out a card on the table and I pick up feedback from Twitter that describes the card I placed down. There’s a live spy camera somewhere in the living room. I did the same card test in the kitchen, bathroom and mom’s personal room and picked up feedback from social media that describes the cards I placed down. I looked all over the ceiling and could not find the cameras. The ceiling was old and had peeling paint everywhere, and holes, so they could be hidden anywhere. I’m tripping out again. I don’t know what to do. I tried to explain it to mom but she acts like I’m crazy. Telling that to anyone would probably make me sound like a crazy conspiracy theorist… I don’t know what to do. I start painting the ceiling. I’m painting mom’s new place to cover up secret spy cameras that I would tell housing or the police about but they would probably think I’m crazy. I got Claire on my phone reacting to what I’m doing at home. Twitter’s going off. I signed up for classes. There’s a shooting that happens at a school that coincides with a class I signed up for. School in South Texas. Some weird coincidences in names at the shooting… the Uvalde school shooter at Robb Elementary. I end up not signing up for anymore classes and the one classes I signed up for that I can remember, was way fast paced and required control of my laptop which was bugging out at this time and kept giving me random blue screens, they were also wanting live video of me. I need a new laptop at this point because I couldn’t figure out what was causing the blue screens, where the computer randomly shuts down or restarts. (I figured this out now, the Nvidia card or driver is messed up, disabled that and it stays up.) I’m starting to be overwhelmed from all of this at once and I’m on my new medication which I haven’t got used to. I think Claire’s trying to introduce me to her friends. Something about photography. I start talking around my phone like it’s an open microphone and communicate like that, I don’t have to send her a direct message. I sense everyone can hear everything I’m saying. I’m also talking to myself with my phone not dialed into anyone. It’s confusing and the I’m talking to myself and not imagining that Claire and her friends can hear me, and not talking to myself like a crazy person never quite settled right. I start tripping out on Instagram and probably embarrassed everyone. I lost focus at introducing me to friends, and photography work, and greenscreens, and Florida, and prom, think Claire’s dating someone so is introducing me to her friends, Claire’s treating me like a five year old, Claire’s flirting with me, Claire’s trying to direct what I do at the house, Claire knows I’m driving to Wal-Mart at night, I think Claire’s trying to suggest I get pulled over and ticketed, Claire’s trying to hook me up with her friend, Claire’s flirting with me, Claire knows what video game I’m playing on the PlayStation on the T.V. and is cheering me on, I don’t know what the fuck, I got ten thousand dollars, I’m going to pick up a new car that’s nice and go out and check out this new school I don’t ever remember hearing of and maybe score a date with this one, I’m obsessed with Claire. I propose to Claire over my phone’s microphone. I think she heard me. I think I sounded kind of rude. I apologize, I’m sorry. I notice people (troll accounts) commenting on her social media like they’re stalking me and interacting with her because they know I’m interacting with her and stalking her now, and it’s throwing me off. I don’t think she likes my new Adderall prescription. I think she thinks I’m trying to roofie someone. I think she thinks I’m leaving the house to go on a date or cheat. Claire’s flirting with me. Claire’s introducing me to her mom. I didn’t get approved for my car. I end up with an expensive new phone. I mess everything up and wake up in Houston. The Astros win the World Series. I see the hospital I was born at. I’m at a zoo. I’m at an aquarium. I’m at NASA. I mess everything up. I quit my medication. I’m happy to see Houston but I’m messed up and I don’t know what I’m doing. I check into a place for rent, with some Asian family that has something available, I had no other idea on what to rent or where to go and housing is an issue, I should have gone for another car because mine looks like a wreck. How’d I end up in Houston, I was just proposing to Claire and trying to go to Fort Worth where she’s trying to hook me up with her friends. I’m in Houston renting a room for a thousand a month with a three hundred dollar phone bill and my savings is disappearing fast then I land a job at Wal-Mart, yayyyy, I got a job again and I start messaging Claire to tell her the good news. I think I’m a complete stranger to her at this point. My memories messed up. I left mom in Honey Grove and the house is half painted and there’s spy cameras and I didn’t tell the police because I think they already know and I think sound like a crazy person. People keep dying. What’s with the school shooter. I haven’t had my own place in a while. iPhone’s not private either, people can hear and see everything I’m doing, I spent all my money on it then it overheats and breaks. My car gets towed. I’m fired from Wal-Mart. I buy a moped so I can find a job without my car getting towed. Another job hires me, basically to scan and ticket cars driving on the tollways in California. That job fires me. I can’t afford rent. I end up picking up food delivery with the moped… I get banned from the food delivery app again. I’m homeless, living in my car, trying to find another job and my savings gone. This is kind of depressing, remembering through all of this. I’m at the beginning of 2023 right now in January or so, before moving back to Honey Grove. To Be Continued.

The Never Ending Story.. I’ve read up to The Three Gates chapter, and so far it seems close to how the movie made it out to be. I’m having some difficulty reading it because I’m weirded out from the fact that this book was written before I was born, and it’s a physical book that was printed out in Germany, that resembles a witches, sorcerers, satanic spell book. I’m more focused on wanting to write about all of this than reading it. Though the movie was one of my favorites as a kid, that I did not know or was told that I was a focal point of it. It was written before I was born? I watched it when I was probably eight years old or before that and never watched it much again after I was ten… How was I supposed to know this? People that knew about this earlier on that knew, or strangers would want to be part of this story like it was directions or some sort of instruction manual on how to confront me to coincide with characters in the story. It’s a fantasy book, that’s not real, and I have nothing to do with it. I understand it’s very popular and the industry dropped millions of dollars into it to make it a popular movie on top of that, the least these people could of done is warned me and suggest a security guard when I could afford it.

There’s a lot of subliminal messaging going around that is very loud and annoying. One thing I sense a lot that I would like to opt out of, is when I’m ordering food at a restaurant. Let’s say McDonalds… I order a meal with a large French Fry. I’m hungry and just need some food. I’m not trying to secretly say that I want a French person to show up and start following me around to be my new friend, or show up my job to take my job away from me. I stop going to McDonals because of this. I order a steak burrito. I need the food not a stalker. In not trying suggest some homosexual hint about a burrito with brown beans and steak. I grew up eating Mexican food. Then there’s anything to do with Chicken, has the body odor version of calling someone the derogatory version of someone that’s scared. I eat Turkey to avoid that spam, and Turkeys also native to the U.S. so there’s that. Chicken is more common everywhere though. The Frog Mascot at TCU… I know this is not related to food, though I have heard of people that eat frog.. in my opinion is symbolizing Satan, with Satan described as a lizard creature sometimes like a dragon, and sometimes described as bullish monster. Cow lizard lol
Idk where I was going with this after that
I had a very stressful last few years putting all these puzzle pieces together… part of me thinks there’s some weird Nazi Satanic vibe emenating from this place that’s stalked me since forever ago to prevent me from success… Then there’s this hot babe I bumped into three years ago when I noticed her at TCU on Instagram… Not to sound like a conspiracy theorist or anything and trying to be as optimistic as possible. Writing about whatever to not be bored. This is probably the worst time to write all this because I just bought her a ton of flowers and some rings because waiting is driving me nuts and something’s better than nothing…

I went to the doctor’s and a female filling in for him for the Holidays came into the room to check on me and refill my medication. Door closed. I said everything’s okay, refilling my medication and getting my checkup as normal. That’s it, maybe five minutes while she typed on a laptop. I think this is where women spying on my life think this gives them an approval to go take nudes at a photographer with a private photography session, kind of ruined my day seeing the results. I don’t know what else to think. I seem to get the most feedback from when I do something that they want to do something back to upset me, otherwise it seems like I’m the focus of whatever it is they’re doing and focused on all the negativities. This sounds like the boycott the people of the opposite sex movement except for wife, otherwise we’re all doing some sort of competitive cheating on each other battle of the porn stars. Who can come out to look like the bigger cheater out of a situation. I wouldn’t be writing all of this if I didn’t have my Adderall. I’d probably be watching a movie, my fan favorite continue to ignore me while going out with everyone else, posting that she’s out getting drunk at some new bar or club and I don’t know what to say to someone that seems obsessed with me that I’m obsessed with when the communication doesn’t happen so it’s like I’m talking to myself all the time. I don’t like to see her sad. I don’t know why else someone would put that up there like that.
My speakers, headphones are in my storage in Houston and I don’t want to mess with that right now so thought about one of these off-brand headphones that are on black Friday sales. JBL actually seems to be a pretty popular brand and the speakers at the Will Rogers rodeo arena are JBL… I never tried it before, but they got ones on sale for about $20 and earbuds for $10… think I’m going to avoid earbuds for now… earbuds go in the ear, no comment, and I like my over the ear headphones, though I prefer a speaker…
I just slept through most of two days for Thanksgiving and the last few days, I would take my Adderall and fall asleep through it, sleep through my Adderall that’s supposed to wake me up. Umm I said something once comparing two different brands of Adderall and I take that back. It was something about how I thought one made me super horny while the pharmacy switched me to a different type and I thought it was the complete opposite. That happened two years ago. Think I had a small panic attack from my medication being switched to a different brand. That and the pharmacist dropped it on the floor before handing it to me. For days I thought someone tampered with my medication and I was taking something unknown. I think it was all in my mind.
The first month, kind of hectic, getting used to my medication. If I get sleep, I’m perfectly fine. Sometimes I might take one kind of late, and not get enough sleep and so I end up in a very bad mood the next day. Lack of sleep = mix of mad and depression. I don’t think I’m going to ask for an SSRI yet and I’ll keep tabs of my sleep schedule. I also noticed, I take a multi-Vitamin that puts me in a good mood, but if I stop taking my multi-Vitamin it put me in a bad mood sometimes. So it could be that also.
Things to write about:
I could customize my WordPress and make it look umm more cool, custom, colorful… that adds a lot more technical body odor stuff, poetic body odor stuff I have to deal with so I’ve kept it simple and focused on words only. I want to customize it though.
Billyterry.com … I thought to add a page called verified.html and add all the webpages I have on it, give myself verified status on social media because I’m not paying for that and those sites haven’t given me verified status .
The ali body odor thing that follows me around, that I sense people try to use on is complete bullshit and not fair at all and I could totally write my own version of it, for starters, everyone seems to know what I’m doing and I don’t know what you’re doing, it’s like being ALI faggot blind, so to be fair you should poke both of your eyes out right the fuck now. Come be surveillance blind with me before you start making up some stupid whatever it is I’m doing, you’re entitled to because your an obsessed faggot stalker that put yourself in my vicinity to play some sort of ALI faggot bullshit thing.
The Padsplit home.. I have car issues and the hotel I was staying at was taking most of my paycheck but I stayed there to get the hang of the job. Padsplit offered a good deal, I waited a few months at the hotel/motel before trying out the Padsplit. A Padsplit down the road from the hotel became available on the map and the rates were half as much as the motel… and probably a hundred less a week than similar Padsplits in the area. I checked into one, closest to work. First off, two roommates, one with the same last name as me, TERRY, the other with my cousins name, or close to it. Denise. Subliminal message… Dennis the menace, a D “Dick” that’s nice, a D that does Ice, a D that knees, a D something like a Niece. Cousin/Niece same category. Then three more guys move in. One with something similar to my middle name Edward. Justin, happens to be the name of Justin Bieber, one of the social media accounts I get some feedback from on Twitter, that I personally don’t know but hung out with Katy Perry and Taylor Swift, that are two musicians seemed to have wrote a lot of music or sang music wrote by others that’s based of their surveillance of me since forever ago, that I didn’t know was happening, that I also had a crush on but both kind of ignored me when I tried to confront them.. Katy Perry especially that wrote a cease and desist letter when I went to her house. Shane. Some blonde dude from Australia… makes me think of Shawn Mendes, the Canadian guy that ran off with and broke up with Camilla Cabello, and the word HONEY, since I came from Honey Grove and body odor Hunneycutt, the family from Highschool and BoyScouts in Forney that I wrote about were acting like they were trying to adopt us or something, turns out everything went horribly wrong and Robert Hunneycutt, the guy I was paired with in Boy Scouts, turns out he’s a fake friend that had stalked me and used me to their advantage since I was kind of famous from all of this stuff I didn’t know was following me around since the Never Ending Story book, and I’m guessing they knew all about it but didn’t warn me. So this my body odor roommate situation, and I keep to myself because I already sense they have insider information on me and not trying to be best friends with people that stalk me or make my situation kind of wierd without telling me what’s going on with that surveillance shit. There’s also a car at this Padsplit not listed on the app that parks in the driveway and someone in the room next to me that sound like they’re trying to make the ceiling cave in, moving furniture around all night. The ceiling’s literally cracking and popping from whatever you’re doing up there, can you please chill the fuck out.
I’ll go ahead and publish this now and fix the grammar later. I made some posts, I published privately because it was all freewriting and my spelling, grammar, punctuation is all off. I’ll go ahead and make those public also. I’m kind of in this weird situation where it seems like I’m getting setup to be framed so it’s probably better if I post my thoughts though I haven’t spent the time to fix my grammar.

I’m attracted to a Woman that has different interests, different hobbies, a different personality. I totally understand that we should have some things in common and all but I’m not trying to compete with you. I like being able to do my hobbies and am able to show you, heyyyy this is what I do, I hope you like it. It becomes an issue when I do what I do then I go to show you and you’re taking up what I’m doing and trying to associate with people to outdo me and put me down. These people do what you do but they’re better than you, etc. I’m doing what you’re doing and I’m better than you. I’ve noticed this happening a lot.

The TCU Mascot I learned the other day is named Addie, which happens to be the nick name for Adderall. It’s a weird coincidence I learned after signing back up for my medication Adderall this summer. If I have a communication problem and all that time sober didn’t get me anywhere, instead I’m watching everyone else get drunk and wasted and I get ignored so I went ahead and signed back up for that. That, and my job involves dealing medications out to everyone in Texas. So now I’m a lot more talkative and confrontational, it’s one of the effects of Adderall, which also helps me focus.

I spent a year sober watching everyone else get drunk and wasted

Thanksgiving. The celebration of Europeans feasting with Native Americans in a peaceful way. Not long after an epidemic wiped out half the population of Europe and then wiped out a majority of the Native Americans. Thanks for, umm, bringing all the European sicknesses over here. Yeah, it’s a kind of messed up holiday.