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I wrote about how I read the first chapters of The Neverending Story book from 1979, and picked up some subliminal messaging from the book that linked me to the Delta Gamma fraternity at TCU in this post: https://etroyal.com/814-2/
I looked into the Delta Gamma fraternity on Facebook and saw post about the newest Executive named Tracey Williams, which happens to be a very coincidental name, so I left them a comment on one of the recent Facebook posts on their profile: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1_eBeBnAvrpywRRHUb7ExUuYZiazXQBzn/

What’s with all the white trucks that were pulling up at every intersection as I passed when I was driving home from the Powoww?

I did a DNA test three years ago or so and I was kind of surprised with the results. I didn’t know I had Native American in me before that or ever thought I was part of that culture. I was raised around Mexican food, tacos, menudo, Mexican stores… sometimes. No one ever told me, hey your great great, great, great, grandparents were roaming around the U.S. before the Europeans arrived. Tacos and all the Mexican food, I considered that Spanish food and Spanish culture when I was younger before I studied the history of it all. Differentiation between Native Americans and European culture, is kind of difficult nowadays unless I studied history. I kind of grew up listening to Spanish and English T.V. most of the time and related more to that culture. I think T.V. made a big impact how I act and what I relate to. I am 12% and having a lot of fun at these Powwows that I’m watching. I went to these parties when I was 18 into my early 20s, and I saw people dancing that looks like it was inspired by dancers at Powwows, it’s funny because I picked up some of the dances sometimes. I was dancing at raves like some of the Powwow dancers and I had no idea it was inspired by Native American dances and I didn’t know I was Native American at the time either. How I got introduced to the rave scene is a different story. If I could redo what all happened then, I would skipped all public drunken partying, I set a very bad example. Since I kind of grew up without a family except my mom from Mexico. Dad didn’t exist. I’m clueless about everything except what I learned at school and watch on TV, and get bounced around wherever. My ass is hanging out this whole time. I learned a lot since Covid though. I’ll fix my grammar and reword this later on.

I had a lot of fun at the Austin PowWow

I get a picture that look like she on a date with some other dude after I buy her $400 in roses so that’s where my I’m at right now. I’m over thinking this maybe but it’s very difficult to stay optimistic. It’s like I’m a ghost caught up watching others play out reenactments of my life. The woman I love is running around with my stunt doubles and I don’t exist. I try to sound optimistic though I’m drowning in negativity, pessimism. It’s horrible and there’s always the option to sign up for more meds, I can deal with it though, writing about this helps. SSRI anyone Celexa, Zoloft, Prozac

I grew up in some countryish town suburbs of east Dallas and I heard a lot of derogatory terms about people of color. Lately, I’ve also studied or took notice of people that do this thing that is described by the word, “gaslighting.” What’s a better way to say that last sentence… I’ll figure that out later. There’s a derogatory term used for people that came to the U.S. from South America called a “wetback.” It’s a derogatory term used for people that migrated from South America and supposedly swam across the Rio Grande to get here. They got wet. Wetback. Funny thing is, that they didn’t consider, is that Europeans initially came to U.S. by boats that involved a lot of them in the ocean, and learning how to swim to survive the trip over here. “WETBACKS”

I wrote about a website I made when I was right after highschool on the music scene in Dallas. I think I did it mostly to learn how to make webpages. Back then these bulletin board scripts were trending… before Facebook. The scripts are kind of like Twitter, probably the best comparison to bulletin boards. Main topic, with replies, user profile pictures, register and login. I picked up a webserver and installed one of the premade scripts. The topic at first was the DFW rave scene and the message board took off, and a lot of people started registering on it and posting articles and comments. I’m barely 18, 19, 20 and the servers costing me about a hundred dollars a month, then I found out the script I was using needed a subscription that I couldn’t afford, so I redid the website with an opensource, free, version that didn’t need a subscription fee. It turned out to be a German content management script that was based off of another Content Management script that was very popular at the time. So in all I learned how to use Vbulletin, PHPBB, Postnuke then Joomla. I went from knowing some basic html from Highschool to knowing how to run webservers and scripting in PHP.
This website on the party scene, at the time I was going to club festivals, and I ran into some people that were posting on this message board that I had setup. Before I knew it, I had quite a few people I considered friends that I would see now and then out in Dallas. Somehow, I got invited into a dance group. It was kind of corny, but it was fun. Yeah, I didn’t know how to dance too well at first… sometimes I’d be drunk and see people out there dancing on the dance floor and I’d go out there too and do whatever to dance also. I only ever danced when I was drunk, so I can’t imagine how stupid I might have looked. Well after the invitation to the dance group, I kept practicing something called pop-locking and I might have done okay now and then. Lots of drunk happening here. Some people in our dance group could break dance also. Which was cool to watch, but I wasn’t much of a floor dancer person though I tried.
Fast forward several years later and now that I look back at this, I can’t imagine how many of these people were also trying to set me up and frame me, because I didn’t know the state of surveillance back then or anything that I’ve learned about what’s going on since COVID. I lost touch with most people I knew back then also because my social media accounts got wiped and lost my contacts. I’m currently writing about this right now because I kind of bumped into someone I knew at the time, I haven’t seen in twenty years. Unfortunately, it wasn’t a happy reunion… “Hey, what’s up, I haven’t heard from you in a while. Are you okay?” It looks more like a social media account discord on me, based on a photography site because of the play on words. I mentioned this group of people from TCU I bumped into on Instagram a while ago and yeah so I like this woman I met from there and now this dude from forever ago is running around with that woman I was trying to talk to from that group in TCU… my response to that wasn’t very happy https://drive.google.com/file/d/1_0CVclaUn_6E55I3ebWpLcNh-67WeikX/

Summarizing the Neverending Story, the book. The start of the book has some characters that run into each other and are talking about some empty void that is taking over their lands. There’s this a character called Blubb, a Will-O-The-Wisp that says the void took over a lake and the King of Frogs from his homeland. This makes me think of Fort Worth’s TCU with the Frog mascot. I mentioned earlier the book looks like it was written to appeal to U.S. audiences, though it was written in Germany. I would never have thought of this before because I didn’t know there was a Christian School in Fort Worth, and didn’t know about TCU until three years ago. I used to go to Fort Worth to clubs when I was 18 or so and had no idea there was a college there like that. I did hear there was a military base there. The German title of The Neverending Story, “Die unendliche Geschichte,” with it’s initialism that looks like DOG (DUG), that might appeal to a certain DG fraternity there. What does a DOG have to do with this? There’s a character later on called Falkor, that looks like a dog with wings, that resembles a dragon. I have no idea other than that. I happened to pick up all these subliminal messages while reading this first chapter.

Blade Runner 1982 released the same time as E.T. the Extraterrestrial… I’m putting this on the list also… my list of movies I haven’t seen (I might have seen this one already, I’ll have to watch it again.), my list of movies I haven’t seen is up there. I have a lot of catching up to do.
Director: Ridley Scott (Name sounds like Scottish Riddles, the Riddler in Batman)
Based on: Phillip K. Dick’s, “Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?”
Starring: Harrison Ford, Rutger Hauer, Sean Young, Edward Olmos
Editor: Terry Rawlings

I hate to write about this so I’ll make this post private for now. I try to evaluate myself as if I was a psychologist studying myself. I don’t know how else to say this.. I’ve noticed something about me and I haven’t studied this stuff too much. It’s something like Alzheimers. I don’t think it’s Alzheimers though. Things that cause me to stress out, or things that are overwhelmingly I have no idea what that’s about, it seems like I blank out and forget that’s there. I was writing about this surveillance thing and how I didn’t catch on to what was happening a lot earlier for example of how I thought I was surrounded by a lot of coincidences, overwhelmingly a lot of coincidences, that should have made me aware of the state of surveillance a long time ago. I thought the world was very coincidental and weird and brushed everything off and forgot about it, because I didn’t understand it. Sometimes I thought I had some weird people attraction super power from watching shows like X-men with Mr. Magneto. I never understood it and forgot about it all the time. That Batman – Arkham Knights video game with the tech gadget that sees everyone through the walls slowly sank into my understanding of what was happening when I bought my PlayStation in 2019 or so. It really took a while for me to accept that that was something that is real. I’ve heard and seen those fish scanners on fishing boats, and thermal heat scanners… besides that, I know about X-Rays at the doctors and can only imagine what type of tech it is that’s picking everything up. If it’s longer range scans with something like X-Rays, Gamma Rays or something closer ranged like the scanners on fishing boats that are installed in the ceilings of buildings, I have yet to know what’s trending out there but I can sense it’s all over the place. I’ll have to go back and figure out how to word this better and correct the grammar.

There’s something about these three movies titled the “Blindside.”
Blindside 1987 – Canadian film about a surveillance expert. Director: Lynch. Writer: Beattle. Producer: Simpson.
Blind Side 1993 – L.A. film about a couple that runs into and accidently kills a Mexican Police Officer. Director: Geoff Murphy.
The Blind Side 1993 – Based on a true story about a poor foster care kid that got to play in the NFL. Sandra Bullock, Tim McGraw, Quinton Aaron, Kathy Bates

The Neverending Story
These are my notes and summary based on the book instead of the movie because the book was written right before I was born whereas the movie was made right after. I didn’t know this was an actual book outside of the movie until (now as in within these last few months when I started listing all this stuff on this journal) now so before I get my facts messed up on things that might have happened in the movie that didn’t happen in the book, I’m going to go ahead and read the book.

The Neverending Story is the English translation of a German book called, “Die unendliche Geschichte.”
It was published in German in 1979 with the English translation published in 1983. It was written by Michael Ende. It was published in German by K. Thienemanns Verlag, Stutgart. It was published in English by Doubleday & Company. Inc. It was published by Penguin books in 1984. The version I’m reading now was published by Dutton’s Children’s Books, a division of Penguin books, published in 1997.

Contents
Prologue
1: Fantastica in Danger
2: Atreyu’s Mission
3: Morla the Aged One
4: Ygramul the Many
5: The Gnomics
6: The Three Magic Gates
7: The Voice of Silence
8: The Wind Giants
9: Spook City
10: The Flight to the Ivory Tower
11: The Childlike Empress
12: The Old Man of Wandering Mountain
13: Perilin, the Night Forest
14: The Desert of Colors
15: Grograman, the Many-Colored Death
16: The Silver City of Amarganth
17: A Dragon for Hero Hynreck
18: The Acharis
19: The Traveling Companions
20: The Seeing Hand
21: The Star Cloister
22: The Battle for the Ivory Tower
23: The City of the Old Emperor’s
24: Dame Eyola
25: The Picture Mine
26: The Water of Life

Prologue Summary:

Bastian, a boy described as fat, lost his mom and is bullied by kids. He’s in a store and sees a book with a metal snake emblem. He steals the book and runs off to his school’s attic with some props, an owl, a golden eagle, a fox and a skeleton. He reads the book, sitting “Indian Style,” and enters a magical world called Fantastica.

Fantastica in Danger:

It starts off by describing main characters from Fantastica’s Howling Forest, they all carry white flags.
– Will-O-The-Wisp named Blubb.
– Rock chewer named Pyornkrachzark, eats rocks and rides a bike made of rock and is ten foot tall. Pyornkrachzark is from a mountain with holes that looks like Swiss Cheese. His family is known as the Cheesiewheezies.
– Tiny person named Gluckuk, wears a red hat and rides a Snail
– Night-Hob named Vooshvazool that rides a Bat.

These character’s ran into each other and Blubb, the Will-O-The-Wisp, explains that’s there’s a void, emptiness, nothingness that made Lake Foamingbroth and Foggle the Father of Frogs disappear from Blubb’s homeland in Moldymoor. The nothing void is spreading and making everything disappear. Blubb is off to see someone called the Childlike Emperess for help. The other characters say the same thing happened to their homeland and they’re all going to see the Childlike Emperess for help also.

They all take off to the Ivory Tower where the Childlike Empress is at and are then told that she is ill and it’s probably caused by the nothing that is taking over the land. – End of Chapter

Atreyu’s Mission:

The empress is sick, and details the Fantastica Palace and all the people that have tried to cure her, dwarfs, fairies, sprites, snakes, witches, vampires and ghosts. The empress ruled over all over Fantastica and her death meant the end of them all and her death meant the end of Fantastica.
The story switches between detailing the Fantastican Empresses’ illness and Bastion’s mom’s final moments in a hospital where she was sick before her death.
The story switches between the story Bastion is reading and back to recounting things in Bastion’s life outside of the book.
Back in Fantastica the creatures trying to cure the Empress see a centaur walk in called Cairon, with a medallion of two snakes, the same emblem that’s on the book Bastion’s reading. The medallion is called Auryn, and they need to get the Auryn to someone called Atreyu to find a cure. The Childlike Empress specifically asked for Atreyu to find a cure.
Atreyu walks into the palace, a hunter that uses bows and arrows, in a purple-red cape, with blue-black hair, in a buffalo leather outfit, that can track down someone they think can cure the Empress.
The Auryn medallion will give Atreyu great power and protect him on his quest.
Atreyu gets on his horse Artax and leaves on his mission.
The story describes the nothing that is taking over Fantastica turning into a monster, thing of some sort that picked up on Atreyu’s scent and takes off after him.

I’m reading The Neverending Story book that was written in 1979 for the first time.

With so many people following my life story as if I was part of a popular drama show and the inspiration for all that in the entertainment industry, I’m very surprised no one ever made me aware of all that a long time ago, and also why I haven’t had more opportunities. It seems everything worked out the opposite most of this time with people putting me down a lot. The times when I would be doing okay, it always seems like a freak of nature shows up out of nowhere and knows everything about me and all my weaknesses, and everything to put me down again.

I wrote about The Neverending Story the other day, and I made a note about the part where Atreyu’s (the Native American character that doubles as a star with Sebastian) horse gets stuck in the swamp and drowns *bubbles*. This book was written before the E.T. movie, though the movie was released afterwards. It seems to me that the idea with E.T. taking off in a U.F.O. at the end happened, maybe by coincidental chance or maybe planned out, was a way to counteract a Native American losing his ride in a book that was becoming so popular in Germany. Comparing Atreyu to E.T. as a Native American… in one he loses his horse ride, then in the E.T. gets it back in the form of a U.F.O. to make Native American people happy again? In the form of E.T. lol…. anyways the Predator in a movie following that, has the body odor of, “It’s E.T. coming back to earth,” and then hunted. I don’t have anything to do with any of that.

I’ve listed the LoveShackFancy brand to my list… it happens to be the year I adopted my dog I named Shaggy in 2011-2013, and it’s surprising to know now that me getting a new dog would inspire a clothing brand’s name in New York. In that time I would never have guessed anyone in New York would have known I had adopted a new dog because I did not know about the state of surveillance back then. I do remember at that time that Casey Casem passed away right afterwards. I happened to see that on the news… that he had done the voice for Shaggy in Scooby Doo. I remember that sounding very coincidental, and the memory stuck. Before that, I had no idea who did the voices in Scooby Doo. Some sort of RH… Real Housewives, Rebecca Hessel, RH association with Robert Hunneycut fake friend from highschool. I ain’t your fake friend for you to leach off of. Obsessed vampire stalker people trying to start some drama bs. Taylor Swift ass coward. Idk what else to say… I ain’t you’re fertility lucky charm for everyone to try floor and ignore. Your clothes are overpriced.