I think the reason why I’ve dealt with so much stress and negativity lately, besides I didn’t know about the state of surveillance and now I do and I’m kind of embarrassed and try not to think about it, is because of what happened right before covid started in January 2020. Maybe a year or two before it started, I started acting kind of weird and was posting a lot of hate content on Twitter, and I don’t know where that came from right now… and I posted it on something I had setup to be something like a DJ brand profile that I was struggling with because I had so much going on trying to do that, and I hadn’t planned out and was partly a video gamer profile that might have done okay on something like Twitch, to a profile that could have DJed with professionally. I mostly kept my content kind of lighthearted, more on the comedy, cute side. Then right before Covid happened I don’t know what happened I started posting a lot of hate, and die, die everyone and then the next thing I was cosplaying as the death with a scythe for a halloween costume, and then covid happened and a lot of people were dying. I couldn’t explain that and it kind of shocked me and wowed me, and probably kind of shocked a lot of people. I didn’t know what to think of that, that profile was… I don’t know how to say this… it felt suddenly bard karma, bad vibes, broken, so I stop posting on it and try to forget about it and literally almost forgot about it because I didn’t want to think about it. I think some people that witness what I was saying on that profile might have blamed me for covid all this time before I finally snap back to it and delete all the content from that page the other day than leaving it hanging there, and so I think I was dealing with a lot of targeted negativity all this time from people effected by Covid because of something I can’t explain and because of a stupid cosplay stunt the Halloween before Covid, so all that was on that profile these last four years and finally delete it and should’ve a while ago but I blanked out idk what else to say. I’ve had to deal death threats since then as an example of stuff I’ve dealt with.
I have a conspiracy theory, and that’s that people knew about Covid way before it happened because I noticed some things in the news about predictions on it. I believe one was something Obama was saying in a speech a few years before it happened. There’s also that Spider Man video game that was released a couple of years before it happened, that had enemy labs setup around a city that looks like New York, with everyone wearing masks to protect them from outbreaks. I don’t think a virus like that would sit around at a research laboratory without people trying to plan out what to do with it, and what better year to hold on to that and let it leak out on to everyone than 2020?
I think I got caught on to the hype about something that was happening and didn’t know was about to happen to explain how I was acting, like I was predicting something was about to happen without knowing what it was, if that makes sense?