Mother’s day 2025 at my aunts
My aunt keeps pressing the idea that I’m bi-polar and telling everyone that I’m bi-polar though I’m calmly sitting here for the weeks now listening to her talk non stop for hours at a time, from talking normally, to yelling and wanting to argue, and yelling, to someone’s crying. And then randomly wanting to drive the car out somewhere impulsively to start a fight with store attendants. Road rages a lot. Shoplifts (only a candy bar so far but I remember this now from my childhood with her, shoplifting). I lost count how many times she’s returned things to the store to exchange for something else because she changes her mind after taking products home and opening them. So today I asked her, “Tia are you sure you’re not bi-polar?”
She shows the symptoms of being bi-polar way more than I do
Her reply at first was… no she can’t have that disability because she takes care of Julie. Then later after mentioning she’s bi-polar, she told me.. you know what Billy, I might be a little bi-polar, then she looked at me and said you know what, I’m not just bi-polar, I’m worse than that
I know what bi-polar people are like and they are extreme emotional anger mental, I don’t fit that description at all. There’s time when people like at jobs or like that scenario at my mom’s house where people are pushing my buttons like they’re trying to intentional make me upset, I have a reason to be upset, it usually takes a lot to my make upset though.
It started off, she’s helping me get a place of my own to stay and a job and I don’t owe her anything, she doing this to help. My grand mother raised her instead of my mom as a kid. So she’s going to help me out. I told her I don’t have money right also but I could go to Pacesetter and work there until I landed a new job. She won’t let me work at Pacesetter. I’m not allowed to drive my car until I vacuum it, which she keeps putting off. I got the Lone Star card in the mail. She says I have to give her my card to cover expenses. Now she says I owe her money for bills and wants me to pay her back. Constantly goes off talking to me from she’s happy to see me, happy conversation, to completely insulting me, and yelling me my mom is trash, insulting everyone and her lifestyle is so much better than everyone’s. It drives me nuts listening to her especially when she starts with the insults and asking me questions to pull me into an argument
I’m expected to wear clean clothes without doing laundry on a regular basis. Aunt’s tripping out about this in the mornings. Is have to somehow use the laundry machine without her knowing so I can have clean clothes because I’m not allowed to mess with anything and she doesn’t do my laundry often enough. So this morning my Aunt’s tripping out about a dress shirt I’ve worn twice and hung up in the closet. Well I have nothing clean but some under shirts and shorts. Then goes off on you just came to see me because you want money and just have three dollars. She doesn’t want me here and I need to leave. And she’s trying to sell the house and in some relationship she hates and wishes she was back with her ex husband Tom, and I’m in the middle of everything. That was this morning 5/11/2025 mother’s day in the course of five minutes, instead of good mornings and happy mothers day, before I had a chance to say anything. Her husband never bought a wedding ring and it’s trying to rape her daughter with down syndrome six months into their relationship. And his kids don’t like her, and her kids don’t like him. And she’s been trying to divorce for seven years and bought a fixed up a house with him but still wants a divorce after seven years and live in seperate houses but still deals with it, wants a divorce, doesn’t want a divorce. Sounds confused.
Couple days ago, I’m listening to her talking like usual… usually while she’s cooking. Before a couple of days ago, yesterday I paid attention to how long it takes to make breakfast. Breakfast took five hours and we ate breakfast at lunch. So that’s five hours of listening to her talk while she’s making breakfast. If I so much as try to look at my phone while she talking snaps at me. I might get an hour break between brunch and dinner. Couple of days ago, talking from sun up to sun down. She turned her topics into relationships with me instead of relationships she’s had. Saying women wouldn’t ever want to be with me. I’m to old. I’m not the type women would ever want to be with. I’m never having kids or family or anything. Completely trying to demoralize me.
Ok so mother’s day, went to see my cousin and he bought us lunch at the mall. It was cool. Thank you for everything. Like I want planning on staying here, I just wanted to see my aunt and ask advice on my ID because I suddenly lost mine in Houston and want sure what to do because my Social Security card had also disappeared back in Honey Grove. I recovered these now. SS suddenly appeared in my binder when it wasn’t there before. So after lunch with cousin… my Tia stood at TJ Max and we walk in and she’s looking at purses for a while then wants to leave the store and as we’re walking through the parking lot she’s putting on a new necklace.. I’m wondering where this necklace came from.. appeared from nowhere. Back at the house, she’s repeating I have to leave again and I can leave in the morning. After she had me put all these applications out in the area and I have an interview tomorrow.
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Late night mothers day update… I already ready to pack my bags and ready to go off and work the day labor job in the morning.. all mentally set that I’m leaving and already mentally making plans that I’m probably be in ft worth tomorrow.
Then my aunt asks me to help her sell something on ebay, which is one of the first things she told me about when I first came here, is that she has all lot of stuff she wants to sell but wants some help on how to work ebay to sale it. We could have been doing this the whole time. Anyways I helped her make an account and list her first item and suddenly she’s nice to me again and is talking to me to stay and look for job and help sales stuff in ebay…
Then she gives me a suitcase so I can pack my stuff. I’m so confused now. I’LL pack my stuff in the new suitcase because I’m not allowed to leave tomorrow because I have to help her sale some more stuff in ebay first.